why is this happening to me again?
how long more?
how long more.
Patience is not natural for me. I would prefer instant gratification anytime, anywhere. I am not long suffering.
Patience is not natural for me. I am quick to judge, quick to speak, quick to say my piece. I am not loving sometimes.
Patience is not natural for me. I would like to know the answer now. I want to know what will i be doing, going and will be. Do i not have the right? i am asking already. why have you not answered? I am unable to trust.
Patience in not natural for me. Why is this happening to me ago? why do i have to deal with this again? why do you have to do this to me again? I am not forebearing. I am proud.
I must be able to suffer for long. I must grow to be loving. I must learn to trust. I must humble myself.
For the Lord is not slow. He is not too fast either. The Lord is soverign and He is always just on time. 'Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him,' for i know that ' a patient man has great understand but one who is hasty in spirit is foolish, because,' the end fo the matter is better than its begining and patience is better than pride.'
I am going to enjoy waiting from this day forth.
*both hands on the table with my head propped onto of it and listening to 'my source'
highly bemused that i spent the whole day doing nothing but talking to God, reading the Bible, talking to people and helping some people. Maybe i have learnt some patience in this job, when i first began, waiting for 6pm is sometimes heart wrenching and nerve breaking. but now, waiting for 6pm is waiting actively.
at my door step
2:09 AM