running away and hide
instead of working towards removing the cockcroaches. i would just run away from it. i will hide. it can take over the kitchen, it can rule over my room, i will run away and hide.
seriously, with all honesty, i am disgusted with the sin in my life. they are in no way pleasing to God. but in no way pleasing to me too. but sometimes, i just cant fight it, overcome it, bygone it. instead i run away, and not face it.
so in the same way that i prayed to be hungry, =p, i will now pray to have the desire to want to fight and to eradicate and not run away from it. maybe when i understand, the freedom of not being controlled and to be in fear and shame, i will be motivated?
may my ways be pleasing to you. thank you for loving me and using me, forgiving me even though i disappoint you so often. thank you for your grace and your merices that never fails. sometimes, i dun understand how you can see me the way you do. but that is maybe why you are God and i am not. help me not to lean not own my understanding, but lead me in your ways. i am doing this for you.
a new person would soon be found.
at my door step
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