About 6 years ago, my parents decided to buy a dog. So we went dog shopping. At our very first stop, i saw this puppy. I knew that was the one for me. He was playful but mild. He likes to balance on his hind legs and jump up and down in joy. I wanted him very badly but i did not say it out. (this is very like me) My Parents and i went to some other shops, we saw some other puppies but none made me feel the way i did with the first one. My parents was considering, as that puppy was 2k. very expensive. I wanted the puppy very badly. I was restless for two whole nights. 2 days later, my parents called me and said that someone else bought the puppy already. I cried. I cried sorrowfully. I was very very unhappy. I treated the puppy as mine already.

The good news was that my parents lied to me. The puppy is now called Nike.


I hated how i felt that day. I felt so let down. I felt like someone took wat wat mine. when it was actually not. I am feeling like this today. I lost some things in my life lately. ALthough i instruct myself the right perspective and way to look at these loses, i still feel miserable. Mostly because i am afraid. I am afraid that God will continue to allow things to be taken away from me. Things that matter to me. This was what happened to Job. Will it happen to me too?


Maybe the trick is to not hold on so tightly to things except God? Maybe the trick is to hang on loosely to all other relationships and tangibles?

Pls do not take '----' away.I do not want to let go of '-----'. But let your will be done. I will say this like Jesus cried out to have the cup being taken away from him, but not his will but yours be done.


Naked i come from my mother's womb. Naked shall i depart.
The Lord gives and the Lord takes. May the name of the Lord be praised.

Letting go. Letting God.