squeaky clean shower

many people know i am a huge HUGE fan of body shop. (ok this may come across as an under statement for some who know me better) i love the shower foam, the facial products, the body lotion, body scrub, body butter and lately i fell in love with the spa range. *sadly its too expensive for me. well.... one thing that body shop does not carry is bubble bath! the thing about me soaking in a tub is that i always feel that although it relaxes the body, you do not get clean. because you are just soaking in the same water for that whole time. so after soaking, i have to shower to get myself squeaky clean.

its very very obvious to me when i am dirty, sticky and becoming a possible fear causing element in fear factor. i get completely grossed out and i march to the bath room! i have to whip out my body scrub! the good thing is that i am also aware when my heart needs a squeaky spritual bath.i cant go for a bubble bath. cos the water is dirty. i need streams of flowing water! these are the some of the tell tale signs that i have. i must learn to identify them well. Create in me a new, clean heart, O God, filled with clean thoughts and right desires” (Psalm 51:10)


1. lack of spiritual hunger. or the non existence of it.
2. becoming negative. (being overly bothered about an issue, unable to trust)
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight” (Proverbs 3:5-6).
3. my heart strings no longer tugged by my maker but by something else of someone else
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God” (Matthew 5:8)
4. i become restless and sian and sian and very sian (this is usually the motivating factor for me to go resolve things)


The heart is actually the very center of a person’s life. this includes your mind, your will and your emotions! for Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life” (Proverbs 4:23).


Dear Jesus, thank You that You’ve already forgiven my sins and have given me new life. But Jesus, I struggle in giving You complete control. Especially when it comes to ( ). But I know I can’t settle for only giving you 50 percent or even 98 percent of my life. I realize You want total control. You want full reign of my life.

I’ve received forgiveness for my sins, but I still find myself calling my own shots. will You forgive me God? I want to give You 100 percent. I yield right now to Your authority. You have Your way in my life OK? I give You my dreams, my relationships, my habits, my skills and abilities, my time, my money, my rights. I give it all!

I’m even giving You the unknown bundle — all the stuff in my life that I don’t even know about yet. The struggles I’ll have next week. That tough time I’ll encounter in a year. The friends I’ll have five years from now. I’m giving You control of my past, my present and my future.
Will You release the power of Your Holy Spirit within me? I want to live in Your power — not my own human strength. Cleanse me within and sanctify me. Help me to live a godly life in Your power.

Thank You, Jesus, for helping me surrender everything to You. When I start to pick this stuff up again, gently remind me that it’s no longer mine to hold. It’s Yours. Thank You, Jesus! Amen.

Oh yes one last thing, thank you for answering my prayer about the job. i knew that you would settle it for me. and you did! thank you thank you. ok.. Amen!