PIGGY BACK

knowing that i am blessed is a beeeg blessing on itself.
i know it when i talk to you
i know it when i hear from you
i know it when you lift me up
i know it when you never change
you never leave, you are ever present
knowing that i am blessed is a beeeg blessing on itself


last night, i was lying on my bed. then i remembered a scene in raising helen, where helen leaped onto the back of pastor daniel and he piggy-backed her. i understand her joy. i understand how fun it is to be carried!

when i was younger, in the car on the way home, i like to pretend that i am asleep. so that i dun have to walk up myself but my father or my mother can carry me up. many times, when i am being carried up, i am smiling to myself. *secret smile.

when i was a little older, my friends and i like to play carry each other in school. we will piggy back each other as a test to see who is stronger. its fun to carry people around. but its more fun to be carried. the exhiliration and the thrill of complete trust in that friend to keep you up and not stumble and fall. *secret smile.

then i was thinking, God lifts us up! He carries us. He piggy backs me! What this means to me is that i no need to waste any energy on my own but that he is carrying me on his back. this somehow reminds me of how he carried the cross. carrying the heavy load, carrying my sins, carrying me. but before he can carry me, i must allow him. i must first take the first leap onto his back. to trust that he will catch me. to trust that he will not let me fall. to trust that soon he will let me down again to walk. does this reminds me of footprints by the sand.


i am being piggy back now! *secret smiles.


are you? he is ready for you. anytime. so LEAP ON!