gifts
i fell in love with this song. 'the gift' about 2 years back. by sarah brickman. it has a really nice melody. but more than that, its always nice to be given a gift. its even nicer when people think that you are a gift in their life. but today, i realise something more about giving.
recieveing may be good. but if you recieve a gift and you know that the giver did not mean to give it to you, or had no choice but to give it to you, the value of the gift depreciates greatly. GREATLY! HEAPS! HEAPS! So giving is about the heart of the giver.
when i ask you for things, i always look out for what you end up giving to me. sometimes you do, sometimes you dont, sometimes you give me something else, sometimes it seems like you are not doing anything about my request. help me to know that its about your heart behind the gift and not the gift itself. its not about the hand but the heart.
prayer is not about answered prayers but about the one who answers prayer.
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i am trying to write this in the most matter of fact way. a cockcroach jumped on me just now while i was packing my room. it landed on my lips. i jumped onto the piano chair. and stood there for quite long. a friend called me and ask me if its romantic. -_- dun know what to feel when he said that. ran out of the room. up the stairs. open my parents room. called for help. my two dogs killed the cockcroach for me. they are the best. end of story.
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now i will express my emotions. GROSSSSSSSSSSSSS TO THE MAX! abit pissed too. and now glad that its all over.
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ok i think my phobia of creepie crawlie is abnormal. must think of a way to overcome. one friend suggested flooding. i think before i overcome it, my heart would have jumped out of my mouth in the process. so have to think of other ways. maybe i should set up a forum for this. because i believe that many people would benefit from thsi discussion too.
the next time i talk about creepie crawlies. they would be peanuts to me. yes peanuts.
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at my door step
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