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but for the past 24 hours. i have been feeling miserable. :(
it has always been said that for some, they attend parties, they go have the wildest and craziest time. but once they reach home and lie down on bed. waves of loneliness and emptiness hits them. this is not suppose to be for those that are not these 'some' right? so then why?
in the past three days. i had three huge parties. in the past three days, i was surrounded with heaps of people all the time. in the past three days, i was feeling lonely and sad all the time too. i can possibly attribute this affect to three *
*the time of the month
*deep concerns -frets frets
*tiredness from being host
my take on this is that it could be a contribution from all three.
sometimes i wonder whether others experience such a phenomenon:
sit down somewhere. and just do nothing but feel miserable.
i just did that.
maybe i should just fill my mind with things that i ought to take care of
1. bid for my 6 (6!!!!!) modules
2. go and photocopy the textbook
3. wait in anticipation for hallstay
4. restructure
5. develop the photos from nz
6. work on my scrap book
my sister who is 45kg just came in screaming. "I AM FAT! I CANT FIT INTO THIS SHORTS!'
-_- hello hello? then she started squeezing her fats in front of me and my poor cousin ( a 13 yr old staying with a houseful of girls that are really girls).
one highlight. MAYBE I GET TO GO TO AN ISETAN (private sale) on wed.its only by invitation. shopping makes me feel better always.
what do i really want? and if i get what i want, will i then be satisfied, content and happy? thats besides the point right? i am suppose to be content and happy now already. *i shall go ransack for my joyful church series now
at my door step
6:47 AM